Saturday, November 24, 2007

WOOHOO for baby making!

I tested today and got a BFP (big fat positive) althought it was neither big nor fat... it was the thinnest little line there could be! But its all mine! YAY! we did it! I am having a baby for T and K!
or babies? who knows.. Ill take what I can get.. so will they I am sure!

Monday, November 12, 2007

News on the surrogacy front

Well after being poked and proded and dosed to the gills with hormones of all sorts. I went in this morning (11/12) for a baseline ultrasound, this checks the thickening of my uterus and lining to see if I am ready to transfer.

Now they look for a number above 7 (7 is concidered a medium thick wall) well my number was more then 7.. it was 12.95.. thats very thick... before she told me my number the nurse said "oh your so getting pregnant" Made me very very happy and made my Ips tickled pink.

So in 6 short hours I am leaving for Ohio... I will be there for 7 days and we are not sure of the exact day, because really thats all up to the embryos and how they hold up. but we know it has to be either this coming weekend or on Monday.. I will have invitro that will change my life for 9 short months and change my Ips lives for the rest of there days.

I could just wett myself I am so excited!!!

take care and think fertile thoughts for me and my Ips!

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

How to say goodbye to your best friend.

When hes a dog and doesn't know plain english?

My dog is my best friend... I have many best friends, My husband Dave, My faithful Kris, My friends Tara, and Becki..

But my best constant always by my side friend is My dog Bear. We are homies, soulmates... yes hes a dog, but I love him so much, Hes NOT like my child... I hear a lot of people talk of there pets like they are another child... Bear isn't like that to me, Hes my dogself, one of my girlfriends and one of my pastors or counselors, hes a little bit my brother and a little bit my father.

He is NOT just my dog, he is my friend, he is in part why I get up everyday and smile, he has taught me so much!

He is kinder then I am, more patient then any adult I have ever met, I know he is wiser then I am. and he is gentle and decent and constant.

When everything is shitty, when my day just isn't what I had hoped, I have Bear, always there, to look at me, The soul and understanding in his eyes is so strong.

Bear does have his weak points, but they are far and few, I can meet someone with 10 x the flaws and like them greatly, so the match Bear and I have, is more then dog and owner, its friendship, tried and true and soulship.

I have been trying to come up with words to tell my family that our beloved Bear, our best friend and our faithful brother is dying.

No words come to me.... Just pain in my heart, I can't imagine my life without Bear in it. The fact is that we have been truly blessed and fortunate to have him as long as we have. 12 years is a long long time for a dog his size to be around. Soon he won't be here and I will have to find a way to carry on. I know I will, I know that time is what it will take. And the thought of him with me inside my heart. But DAMNIT! I don't want him to go.. I want to be selfish and hold on to him and not let him leave me!

I look at him this morning as he can't seems to walk, I watch him drag himself to my side, everywhere I go, he comes crawling to me. Still so constant even when his back legs don't want to move. He is in this for me... He is in this life to be with me, and I can look into his eyes and see his calm and know that he is more worried about me, then about him dying. Like he is saying "shh, just let it be, It always has to be, and it will be ok" actually he probably would have said something much prettier if he could speak people. But he gives me comfort even now.

So how to say goodbye to my bestfriend... I can't give him a steak... he won't eat it.

He will just have to settle for some love, some hugs and my tears.

Even dying he is going to be the one I need and not the other way around.

I love you Bear.
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Thursday, November 1, 2007

Todays project Pink Loom

I am useing this pattern: Double Knit Dishcloths
I am trying to use a Pink LL long loom, because ALL of my knitting boards are either RG/LG and you can't loom these.... so we are trying.... on a pink loom and I will let you know how it goes.